I was awakened at 2:00 AM one night with a terrible dream that my wife had passed away. It was one of those "really real" dreams and I was in tears. After I checked to make sure she was still breathing, I wrote this song.

Lyrics

I Still Buy You Flowers
© 2020 By Craig Mecham

Now it’s 2 am
Here I go again
I’m dreaming of you
I want to feel your touch
I want it oh so much
But there’s nothing I can do

Is that you in a crowd
I speak your name out loud
And then you disappear
My heart plays tricks on me
Shows me what I want to see
And what I want to hear

Since you’ve been gone
I barely get along
I spend my days trying
I spend my nights crying

I still buy you flowers
I carry them for hours
With nowhere to go
But I still end up there
And I just sit and stare
At your name in that stone

There’s an empty space
In that lonely place
Where I want to be
It’s not my time now
And I don’t know just how
To keep my sanity

Since you’ve been gone
I barely get along
I spend my days trying
I spend my nights crying

So I just close my eyes
And hope my brave disguise
Is what they all see
If they only knew
How much I need you
To end this misery

I don’t wanna pray
I do it anyway
The pain cuts so deep
And then I feel the love
That comes from up above
And I cry myself to sleep

Since you’ve been gone
I barely get along
I spend my days trying
I spend my nights crying